In each of us lie good and bad, light and dark, art and pain, choice and regret, cruelty and sacrifice. We’re each of us our own chiaroscuro, our own bit of illusion fighting to emerge into something solid, something real. We’ve got to forgive ourselves that. I must remember to forgive myself. Because there is a lot of grey to work with. No one can live in the light all the time.

“So that’s how we live our lives. No matter how deep and fatal the loss, no matter how important the thing that’s stolen from us - that’s snatched right out of our hands - even if we are left completely changed people with only the outer layer of skin from before, we continue to play out our lives this way, in silence. We draw ever nearer to our allotted span of time, bidding it farewell as it trails off behind. Repeating, often adroitly, the endless deeds of the everyday. Leaving behind a feeling of immeasurable emptiness.”

“It’s not the load that breaks you down, it’s the way you carry it.”

“Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life.”

My BestFriends

Bella : I love her tomboy style and kinda cool :D Hehe . Nmpk style macam tomboy tapi kelakuan mmg wajib lah still like a girl . Just a dressup okay :) . I love her skin . Dia sentiasa merungut kot cakap skin dia bnyak tu lah ni lah . alah yang  penting jerawat dia macam tkda sngt and tak macam i . bnyk gila . ni semua pasal resdung . Damn! whatever it's i love you bella ! She always understand me :) She's my 1st sister . Love you bella keding nebeng ! <3

Alia : She's beautiful. Dia terlalu girl and kinda vintage dressup :) . But i'm not a vintage style . i know sometime macam dia ajar dressup ala ala vintage macam i bawa dia pg shopping ( buy a new shoes for me ) girl shoes . She choosed a shoes like a vintage but i'm not interested at all . Ye lah , dressup i kinda not a vintage . Mmg cantik but not suitable for me :) I love her legs . Skinny doe . Whatever it's , she has a good taste and a my 2nd sister :) love you semek kecik! <3

Fief : She's my 3rd sister :) . She's kind and sometime i love her popetpopet cos tkda lah bosan sngt en :) but kadang kadang tu macam ala ala serabut skit cos suka sngt bcakap time study :) hehe but i still love her :) . If ada masa bosan or terluang , i will call her and kitaorang selalu gayut guna fon rumah . mana taknya fon rumah dia boleh contact fon rumah je . hihi . If ada orang call , sah mmg fief but since she left pinky girls and the world , no more call for me ( line rumah ) . Suka mata fief ! wrna koko :) love it ! cantik taw . hihi . Rindu nk tgk dia catwalk ( jalan-jalan) macam budak budak taw ! haha . dia macam budak budak kecil kadang kadang tu and sometime dia blh jadi pemikiran dewasa :) bab bab politik , okay fine , serahkan kepada fief :D Love you always fief and i always remember you ! Muahxxx . Xoxo .

Usha :  Hahh! Ni semek kelam kabut hura hara keadaan :D She's kinda funny and kecoh gila ! Dah dua kali buat masa ni kitaorag ( i , bella and usha ) kena halau dari tuan punya kedai . Tu pon gara gara usha ! tangan ni gatal sngt pg and main bnda yg tidak boleh disentuh or dirosakkan . lagipun dia tak sengaja . biasa lah tu kan ? haha . kalau bab mkn tak habis , kasi dkt usha ! bab kuat makan dia and bella lah , tapi bella makan tak habis even kuat makan , bab habis mkn and habiskan mknan dgn laju , semek usha ni lah :) HAHA . Dia blh adapt dengan sesiapa saja kot dgn dia bergaul :) . But kadang kadang tu geram juga cos dia tak behave lah kadang tu lah . nk buat macam mana , nobody perfect so do i :) Love you ! She's my 4th sister :) Hehe . gedix ! Love you gila ! hihi .

Farid Ezaimy : Hahh! Farid ni , if dia ada masalah , he's rarely gila lah nk share with me . If dia ada masalah , i know dari segi dia txt me . if dia tak txt ke , ada lah tu yang tak kena . if dia tkda credit , after top4 he will tell me yg dia tkda credit . Haritu tersentuh gila pasal dia kutuk M.U (mancherster united ) . My fav tu M.U ! huh ! lama lama tu tak kisah dah . haha . pnh jga merajuk pasal M.U dgn dia . Ala maklum lah dia tu liverpool lah sngt . PEM kan awangs ni . Ngada2 and nebeng dia pon ada juga if kadang kadang mood dia tgh bengom3 . HAHA . Dia macam abg oh if bab bab nasihat and biasanya bnda yg dia nk nasihat tu bnda yg ada dah dalam kepala otak i :D Dia tnggi oh ! Serious tinggi ! hehe . Love you farid ! You'r my bff for boy :) hihi .

Thah :  Dia ni umur je same with me tapi i treat her like a younger sister . dia macam adik and serious manja . nampak en muka dia macam garang kan ? tapi tak garang langsung except dia marah ah . if dia xda mood mmg macam serious lah but i know how to make her smile :) hihi ., puji je dia and ajak je pg buat mnum air panas ke . hah ! automatic okay trus lahh :) HAHA . bijak kan nk tacle punya mood dia . hihi but if dia marah , wow ! habis semua lah orang kena . habis moody dia punya satu badan . dia mudah terasa but with me and mumu susah kot dia nk terasa :) three of us like a siblings dah . hihi . Love you orange ! haha . bnyk lah ang punya lawak buat . haha . Dia suka part i buat muka blur . haha :D

Mumu : She's cute ! Perwatakan dia kadang kadang gila and kadang kadang macam caring like a mother :) bab bab masak mmg dia suka ah :) hihi . dalam roommates three of us , mumu pndai masak sekali cos dia pon dkt rumah stay with her family without her dad , her parents divorced but she's being a good girl . she know what's bad and good for her :) Alhamdulillah . tak ruined macam stgh family , if parents dah divorced ank jadi lintang pukang en . but mumu tak :) Love you mumu nebeng . Suka sngt bila orang nk tdur, datang datang penyek hdung miera ,ish ! apa lagi , sekali pang lah ku kasi dkt lengan dia yng blh dikatakan berisi bambam juga :) hihi .

I wish i could be friends with chu like da old times :( I really miss chu a lot . You'r da one of my bff da old times and i think i need you . Just be a friends with me , back ? Forget about our feeling . Hhhmmm . I know you already've someone special in yawr life and i didn't mean to you rite ? I feel so lonely rite now . You! Sorry for my stupid mistakes but not all of my mistakes , actually you'r da one who's unfaithful rite ? Hhmm , Nevermind , it's a fate . All i wish that i could be a friends with chu again :( . I miss our memories :( .
I wish i could back to da old times and fix it where's da wrong dat both of us did . but nopeee~ there's no chance anymore . Now,i still can feel da pain of love and i hate it so fucking damn much . why i can still da pain ? urgh! i can't get it. i don't love you, seriously don't love you anymore . deep in my heart, there's only left pain , hateful and miss you . Whatver it's i've to move on for my future and my own happiness . Good luck whtever you do and May ALLAH bless you , i hope you will get your own succesful and don't give up whatever you wanna it .

I just got back from hang out with one of my biesties and pinky girls , She's bella , Yapp!we didn't pray bcause yeah,i'm period. Sorry bella just bcause of me you didn't pray. i should respect you more bcause you can pray . Sorry. Since i was practical-ing, i don't ve too much time to spend my life with my friends. My parents thinks that i always hang out? Sorry, i only hang out sometime! Not always. I hate my fucking life when i was practical-ing and when someone or people disturbing my time with my pinky girls . When im hang out, i only hang out with my pinky girls and other friends such as friends who were same age with me and da same school . Those friends were make me happy. I think i only happy with them.

I feel i wanna talk to my followers but i don;t have any idea to talk about it, i've a simple question but after all da ques that i ask was answer,so what i should i ask more? www.thispagebelongstome.tumblr.com . I really wanna make a lot of friends from other country or religion and so on . I really wanna make a friends . A lot of friends would make me happy :) . When i with my family seriously i don;t feel happy just like i'm happy with my friends ,

Yawrr ;) This's da fact , maybe or not ? HAHA

Everybody,
Get to know me before you judge me.
I joke around most of the time so try not take me too seriously.

I love to play around with my friends , spending my time with my bff (PINKY GIRLS) and online-ing . My besties blog's TUMBLR ! Tumblr's da most interesting for me . If people think that i spending my time most to facebook,they'r wrong cos i usual more to tumblr . i don;t show off my tumblr to other people except for my pinky girls , my tumblr's kinda privacy and fav things or da thing that i love it , i reblogs . Tooo much rebloged :) . Kbye! :D

 

Smart gila en rambut ni but orang ramai dah buat style camni so i will not make this style even wow ! sumpah cool sial.

 

Yang ni pon wow !dgn colournya lagi lah gila menarik kan ? But nahhh!this's not suitable for my type.

 

Hahhh!i wanna make yang ni ! nampak style mcm girl skit kan ? cos i pon skrang ni mcm sometime more to girl and sometime mcm biasa yawrr :) so rambut i dah panjang skrang ni , so boleh lah buat type camni :) lagipun dah bncang dgn kak Da (tukang gunting rambut ku sejak kecil lagi)dia pon setuju nak buat mcm ni and dia cakap nice gila if buat camni:) curly kecil kecil bru cantik yee , bukan besar besar ! RM120 utk curly and then campur dgn kena layer dulu rambut tu?for sure dalam RM150 something kan ? WOW ! RM120 i'm gonna use my own money and selebihnya duit mama , HEHE ., ye lah biasanya if gunting rmbut kan guna duit mama. HEEEE :) lek lek maaaa, nanti bila kakyung dah kerja ,kakyung kasi duit kakyung pulak dekat mama . HEHE . adil ahhh eh eh eh . HEHE .

 

This girl's one of my friend.Her name's michelle ferenz. She's kind.She's 18years old . Pretty rite ? Look at her hair.awesome and suitable to her :) I love her hair and i hope i'm gonna make it one day :) but without colouring my hair , i wanna make it natural hair eventhough i make a lot of style one day !

Practical Part 3 - Makan Petang

IDK why ? Even rasa stress dgn kerja but i takda lah stress dgn kkk2 dkt tmpt practical zool management . semuanya okayy :) and sometime je lah rasa serabut kot cos always panggil bnyk kali en , tak sampai 5min pnggl ,mcm kak neng . HAHA . but tk salahkan dia cos my fault pon was included juga en .
Cakap pasal makan petang ! kelakar gila kot , i though tabung yg kkk2 ni tulis tuk derma banjir ke apa , rupanya derma mangsa-mangsa kelaparan ! HAHHAHA . mangsa2 kelaparan tu haaahhh!satu office ni  lah . dorang petang-petang mmg wajib lh mcm beli mknan such as kerepok goreng and pisang goreng :)
Budak2 ni i mean kakak and staffs lain lah, mkn laju gilaa doe , i bru sempat mkn satu kerepok goreng and pisang goreng . tu pon dorang if pisang goreng slow skit tapi slow slow ttp aku dapat satu je . HAHA .
Bab makan xyah cakap ah , dorang mmg sapu semuanya makanan kot but best apa kan :) . Bawa mknan apa apa at least habis rasa tenang and best je kan hati :) Tnggl lagi 1bulan 22hari lagi tuk menjalani hari practical oh . HOHO . Nice to meet you ols but i can't wait to get lost from this situation ( works ) sorry guys! Thanks for all the knowledge that all of you gave it to me . Muchos Gracias ! All your knowledge that you gave it to me , i will keep it as i t8care of myself :) . I will not forget all of you,INSYAALLAH :)